a little deeper about mariana

i got into a really interesting conversation with my friend adam tonight. we started talking about people and the things they want in life. you always hear about the kind of people who are at a place in life, and they can either pick the thing they really want to do, or the thing that will bring them guaranteed success, and of course they chose the guarenteed success.. and FF 20 years later, they are rich and unhappy. but chew on this. there are also the type of people who would in a heart beat, chose what they really want to do, be it starving musician, snowboarder.. whatever. something cool. but fast forward 20 years later.. they've never really made it. are still struggling, and kinda wish they took the safe road of 'guarenteed success'. sounds weird huh? but these people exist, and i think deep down i'm afraid i'm one of these people. i won't go into detail, but there you go. something a little deeper about mariana.

so i've was like reading all of jonathans xanga yesterday, mainly because i was feeling loungy and got sucked into it. but he has these really interesting surveys.. questionairs, and this one did sorta catch my attention so i'm going to fill it out:


[Current Mood] very very chill. so chill that it scares me. i've been wearing sweats all day, and i have not showered, and i have been on my couch for 2/3 of the day. hardcore!
[Current Hair] pulled back, slightly greasy. i'm not gonna lie.
[Current Make-up] zeeeeroooooo
[Current Annoyance] my burping
[Current Smell] slightly gross?

Favorites
[Current Favorite Group] ... THIRD DAY
[Current Book you're reading] how europe underdeveloped africa
[Current CD in CD Player] ......... just not in a music mood currently
[Current Worry] my paper due for my history class

LAST PERSON...
[You Touched] david my friend i went to chili's with
[You Talked to] amanda.. no wait alissa's voice mail. pick up your phone!
[You Hugged] david my friend i went to chili's with
[You Instant messaged] amy and andrew
[You Yelled At] my mom on the phone. not yelled just raised my voice at..

FAVORITE...
[Food] some good chinese food, and cookies
[Drink] water and tea
[Shoes] my fur house shoes from target!
[Candy] truffles with nuts. YUM
[Song] still not listening to music.
[Thing to do on the Wkd] relax. watch movies. sleep innnnnn, wear sweats, not worry about school. hang out. eat a lot.

ARE YOU...
[Understanding] i like to think i am an understanding individual
[Open-minded] pretty darn openminded (i think)
[Insecure] yes. very very insecure. i think this is probably my worst flaw
[Interesting] heck yea i'm the most interesting person you'll ever meet in life. this is because i'm mentally/emotionally unstable.
[Random] all the time
[Hungry] no, but i always eat anyways <---how true is this answer?
[Friendly] usually [Smart] questioanble. very questionable
[Childish] haha i'm a brat. a big single child brat. there i admit it very publically.
[Independent] hardcore!
[Hard working] sometimes although i get lazy and say oh screw ambition.
[Organized] hardly at all
[Emotionally Stable] i'm a wreck! a big train wreck waiting to happen. jk. that definitely took my attractiveness down 100 notches. i'm now negative i fear.
[Difficult] not usually haha...
[Bored Easily] not at all. i'm simple minded.
[Messy] yes [Thirsty] ??? [Responsible] sometimes. WHO DO YOU WANT TO...
[Kill] : myself for coughing so much. aghh make it stop!

-W H O-
[makes u laugh the most?] david. hands down he's hilarious. like. doesn't even try and makes me laugh all the time.
[makes you smile] my friends. awwww corny.
[gives u a funny feeling when u see them] you mean makes me wanna barf?
[is easiest to talk to] anyone i'm friends with. because i wouldnt' be friends with them if they were difficult to talk to .. ha

-D O. Y O U .E V E R-
[sit on the internet all night waiting for someone special to I.M. you?] no
[save aol/aim conversations] YES! i do i do beware.
[cried because of someone saying something to you] yea

-H A V E .Y O U .E V E R-
[fallen for your best friend] once. in high school. long time ago.
[rejected someone] pshhh. yes
[used someone] haha thats what we girsl do. don't u know?
[been cheated on] yup
[done something you regret] all the stinkin time. you learn by mistakes though

-D O .Y O U / / A R E .Y O U-
[ smoke cigarettes ] i dont it makes me sick.
[could u live without the computer?] nope. i know my weakness
[color ur hair] not usually
[ever get off the darn computer] yes
[how many peeps are on your buddylist?] better question is how many do i talk to?
[like watching sunrises or sunsets] difficult to choose. maybe sunset because i'm rarely awake for the sunrise.
[what hurts the most?] being disapointed by people.

-N U M B E R-
[of times I have had my heart broken] twice?
[number of things in my past that I regret?] oh quite a stinkin few.

so i'm not filling out the rest of the survey... heres to a great new fabulous awesome week. peace out!